Herbmama
03-30-2005, 11:52 AM
Today I filled to the brim with righteous indignation.
Today I am a little less pleased with the state of the world.
Today I am wearing my emotions a little closer to the skin.
Today I am standing legs splayed, shoulders squared, head flung back, screaming like kali ma in her belt of skulls.
I am thundering at all the little thing you toss out there... thrown into the water without thought to the ripples they make.
Even knowing my anger can only feed it.
Ever widening rings of disassociation pushing each spirit a little further away from another.
One more pebble on the mountain of fear, separation, shame...
One more pebble that on any other day I would quietly step around.
Tomorrow I will nurse that little stone bruise on my soul.
Tomorrow I will be kind and quiet and seek to understand.
Tomorrow I will reach down deep and breathe down deep.
but Today...
Today I am a little less pleased with the state of the world.
Today I am wearing my emotions a little closer to the skin.
Today I am standing legs splayed, shoulders squared, head flung back, screaming like kali ma in her belt of skulls.
I am thundering at all the little thing you toss out there... thrown into the water without thought to the ripples they make.
Even knowing my anger can only feed it.
Ever widening rings of disassociation pushing each spirit a little further away from another.
One more pebble on the mountain of fear, separation, shame...
One more pebble that on any other day I would quietly step around.
Tomorrow I will nurse that little stone bruise on my soul.
Tomorrow I will be kind and quiet and seek to understand.
Tomorrow I will reach down deep and breathe down deep.
but Today...